"This hurts like hell.." [ 9 | 5 | 2009 ]

I’m just a boy with a dream. I want to make you smile, make you happy, say sweet things, share a laugh, love the world. Take a minute to understand me. I am here and I do not want to leave. Love is like oxygen and the whole world is suffocating. What a disease, deficiency of warmth and care. If all I did was share that with you for a moment, as the rain falls on your window pane, remember that day; why you felt that way; what I tried to say.

When we dreamed about playing in the snow that sunny morning, remember the way I cared for you and how you smiled, even just for a little while.

I can never ever let go of how I feel and I am sorry it has taken me so long to tell you all that all I wanted to do was trade your heart for mine for just one second to make you feel how happy I wish you could be. Borrow my heart for just one minute. A world with so much hate can never smile too much or laugh in excess.

I have been there in your shoes at the stroke of midnight when you felt like that and I thought, “If only for just one starry sky to have him know how I think about God and things unknown, how faith holds me in the hardest times and melts pain like snow."

Let’s make plans to be simple and make time to complicate.

Didn’t I tell you?

I stayed up late and realized that I love you and I am on your side. Forever and always until the day I die. Even if I'll never be there to see your spirit fly.

Take me for what I’m worth and I will be good for you if you love me. I just want a relationship minus uncertainty. I will show you I care if you run your hands through my hair and smile at the top of your lungs and realize that I am here, I love you,

AND I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.

- Michael Stephen [ On the player / inspiration / title - Kill The Messenger by Jack's Mannequin ]